The Life and Times of a Part Time Dreamer....

I've rarely felt that I am entitled to or deserve a break. Especially when I have to condone one for my self. Often it's taken my mother telling me to go back to bed when I'm incredibly grouchy, or my finally falling apart into tiny pieces all over the floor to finally get the message to my conscience that it's OK to take a break. So I guess you could call today oddity. I've designated this day as my day for me. a breath of fresh air a pause in my crazy life I'm spending it doing me best to unwind myself from all my " go and do." My inner brain is still running ninety miles an hour trying to figure out what it is I've forgotten or what else needs to be done. It won't shut up. The funny thing is is that I'm sure there is something I'm supposed to be doing but I can't remember and I'm pretty sure it can wait a day while I enjoy myself. a good movie, a treat, my sketch book, and maybe reading a while will hopefully allow things to ...

I'm graduating...... WHAT? Pardon me while I reboot my brain from that blow to the head. 13 years of school and they're finally setting me free? they're not going to hog tie my and drag me back next August? wait....there has to be a catch. I'm dreaming right? No? Your sure? ok....... THEN BRING ON THE PARTY!!!!!!! :)

I've been infected with a feeling. Don't worry I'm sure it's not contageous. It just has me on this strange kick which seems to include periodicly eating ice cream, splashing in puddles, and randomly bursting into song and dance. I'm told it may have something to do with the fact that.......... I just handed in my last peice of highschool homework today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya it's pretty great. ;) You may applaud now.

THE SUN!! IT SHINES!!!! The sun is shining!! The tank is clean!!! And I am getting out of here!! The beautiful weather today has had everyone grabbing a picnic blanket and heading out to soak up as much vitamin D as possible do to our long, gray, drab, and freeze your nose off cold winter. The entire High school was outside our windowless prison today at lunch, seeking warmth and freedom from the purgatory of endlessly being teached at. My dear friend, Kate and I spread out in the welcome sun light and pretended we were bathing beauties out on some beach meant for goddesses such as we. Of course our fellow students and Kate's boyish attachment thought it would be funny to poke, tickle, and step on our seemingly lifeless forms as we recharged. Which resulted in immediate and relentless retaliation. It was a good day that had everyone revived from there winter zombieness and inflamed with the easily catching senior-itous. The school is buzzing with the the words "12 more days!...

OK buckle down people we're going for in for the long haul on this one. It's been awhile and I have lots to tell but not much of it is organized so just sit tight and try to hold on while I try and dictate to you what on earth has ripped me off the planet and now graciously placed me back on it's surface. I left you in October yes? This is largely due to trying desperately to hold on to my new place in the work force. I've since learned to balance my job, school, and social life but for a while there it was a little shaky not to mention terrifying. I've settled into my job nicely and don't freeze up in panic when ever I'm asked to do something new. My co-workers are fun and up beat, not to mention funny which is a major bonus. It's nice to be able to enjoy work to an extent and not be terrified of the people around me. I have to say though, that getting put to work really shakes you out of your bubble of security and was the plague of my sanity for a lit...

My Incredible Flying "feet"! Basy Bro: the High "Slide" Diver! The Balancing act for Three! Our Acrobatic Wonder! And Finally the Test of Ultimate Endurance!!! ( yes we were queezy after)

I guess the best place to start would probably be at the beginning but this time I think beginning in the middle will do just fine. After all we can always come back to the beginning at the end. Have I confused you yet? :) So lots has happened. I got a job, married off my best friend, and I continue to march through my Senior year. And what beautiful day is has been today. Lately I have found my self increasingly drawn into the written word, ex specially since I have taken up reading Jane Eyre. The eloquence, imagery, and originality is astonishing with every page I turn. "Do you think I can stay to become nothing to you? Do you think I am an automaton?--a machine without feelings? and can bear to have my morsel of bread snatched from my lips, and my drop of living water dashed from my cup? Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I am soulless and heartless? You think wrong!--I have as much soul as you,--and full as much heart! And if God had gifted me wi...