Proud Princess
I used to always want to be a princess when I was younger, I just knew I was going to marry some handsom charming prince with a white horse and dashing smile and I was going to make the right chioce the first time and never have to have my heart broken.
but "once upon a time" I realized I didn't want to be that fluffy princess that had to be saved all the time. I learned to fight my own dragons and learned to make the chioces that needed to be made.which in a way has been my down fall, it's made me proud and head strong and stubborn. And I'm still learning to rein myself in.
I guess that pride and confidence of doing things my self has made me intimidating to some people. instead of that smiling inocent princess that does what she's told I've become a towering headstrong empriss with no patience for silly people.
It's not right and I'm ashamed of that pride. I want to have that patience and kindness and I try to be soft spoken , but I still cant stand to sit back and let some one walk on me when I know I am very capable of deffending my self, but that deffence usually ends up as me biting there heads off and putting them back in " there place" as I see fit.
I guess I need to be shown that I am wrong very often to keep my humility.
my question is why can't I just learn?
what started out as good intentions has turned into a prideful mess.
but "once upon a time" I realized I didn't want to be that fluffy princess that had to be saved all the time. I learned to fight my own dragons and learned to make the chioces that needed to be made.which in a way has been my down fall, it's made me proud and head strong and stubborn. And I'm still learning to rein myself in.
I guess that pride and confidence of doing things my self has made me intimidating to some people. instead of that smiling inocent princess that does what she's told I've become a towering headstrong empriss with no patience for silly people.
It's not right and I'm ashamed of that pride. I want to have that patience and kindness and I try to be soft spoken , but I still cant stand to sit back and let some one walk on me when I know I am very capable of deffending my self, but that deffence usually ends up as me biting there heads off and putting them back in " there place" as I see fit.
I guess I need to be shown that I am wrong very often to keep my humility.
my question is why can't I just learn?
what started out as good intentions has turned into a prideful mess.
perhaps I should just learn to keep my mouth shut.
You can learn and you will. Being strong enough to stand up for what you know is right is a wonderful ability. Use your powers to protect others, oh, Emperess.
ReplyDeletedid you chew someone out and feel bad about it? is there something you want to talk about girly? you know I'm always here. don't you? well you'd better.
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